tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post114100363789394880..comments2024-01-25T22:55:04.308+00:00Comments on Silence Without: Tessahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07523122977323033271noreply@blogger.comBlogger33125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-22097148427444967302010-05-10T00:53:45.372+00:002010-05-10T00:53:45.372+00:00Thank you for putting in words that which I have b...Thank you for putting in words that which I have been unable to do. I have read your post over and over and cry every single time. Most of it is exactly how I feel and as I read about how gigantic the future feels, I literally did have to take a large breath. Thank you for helping me acknowledge how I feel. I have allowed my very few and very close friends to read it in the hope that it will explain a little more of the confusing me. Thanks again.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-7966456824093847012010-02-27T02:52:54.317+00:002010-02-27T02:52:54.317+00:00you posted this forever ago, but it's nice to ...you posted this forever ago, but it's nice to see people speaking so openly about depression. sometimes caffeine throws me into a funk, but since i got married, depression doesn't have quite the power it used to...it's nice to have someone else (my spouse) bringing new, more positive perspective into everything. <br /><br />thanks for your good words!soft grasshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05926842101605955000noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-35499240112134444922009-10-08T11:33:44.285+00:002009-10-08T11:33:44.285+00:00Thank you.Thank you.OrbitalDiamondshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15824235116837396086noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-63282384932987928012009-10-08T06:24:59.262+00:002009-10-08T06:24:59.262+00:00You're more than welcome to.
It's been ...You're more than welcome to. <br /><br />It's been a few years since I wrote this, and I like to think I've changed (or at least learned a lot) since then, but it still rings true. I suspect it always will. Reading it again was an interesting juxtaposition of remembering what the worst of it felt like, and remembering that while we're all alone in our own battles, none of us are beyond understanding.<br /><br />There's some comfort in that. Not much, but some.Tessahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07523122977323033271noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-79049121363342583292009-10-07T14:30:53.499+00:002009-10-07T14:30:53.499+00:00I'd like to quote this, and link back to it, a...I'd like to quote this, and link back to it, at my LiveJournal and Dreamwidth journals, if you don't mind.OrbitalDiamondshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15824235116837396086noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-681544701214698112009-10-07T14:28:18.913+00:002009-10-07T14:28:18.913+00:00Wow, you nailed it. I've described my depressi...Wow, you nailed it. I've described my depression as a wet woolen blanket before too, and I have a hard time asking for help, and, well, ...all of it.OrbitalDiamondshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15824235116837396086noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-90714729101344692402009-03-06T10:07:00.000+00:002009-03-06T10:07:00.000+00:00When I'm depressed, I split myself, watch myself b...When I'm depressed, I split myself, watch myself being sucked into the wormhole and is reluctant to pull myself back to life. plunge into the ocean. <BR/><BR/>*hugs* hope you will get better soon, Tessa.<BR/><BR/>cateAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-68715306641641636662009-02-06T04:02:00.000+00:002009-02-06T04:02:00.000+00:00I...this...i could have written thatIt goes awaybu...I...this...<BR/>i could have written that<BR/>It goes away<BR/>but comes back..<BR/>and then goes away..<BR/>then comes back...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1142957908498139052006-03-21T16:18:00.000+00:002006-03-21T16:18:00.000+00:00My name is also tessa and i go through a lot of de...My name is also tessa and i go through a lot of depression sometimes from family issues and ohter stuff. that was really true. nice words.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1142893985154137832006-03-20T22:33:00.000+00:002006-03-20T22:33:00.000+00:00Absolutely.I had post natal depression after the b...Absolutely.<BR/><BR/>I had post natal depression after the birth of my fifth child, and crawling out from under that oppressive blanket was the hardest thing I've ever done, especially as I truly did have to do it, not only on my own, but in the face of another who should have been my love and support but who actually wanted me to stay there.<BR/><BR/>I think Trudi's description of "the blackness" about covers it. I had to Eventually, I had to <I>fight</I> to stop that darkness from completely choking me. <BR/><BR/>It took me 2 years to beat it, but it was in the fight that it stopped beating me.<BR/><BR/>Fortunately a lot of clinical depression has an organic cause. I'm on email if you EVER need anything. No, it's no imposition.Heatherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03228372691176270447noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1142660550560188922006-03-18T05:42:00.000+00:002006-03-18T05:42:00.000+00:00So very eleoquently written Tessa - you captured t...So very eleoquently written Tessa - you captured the essence of it so much better than I ever could. One of the hardest things when depressed is to realise that there are people who give a damn about you and what happens to you. Instead, you end up convinced that it's the opposite. Hang on in there.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141147707079794082006-02-28T17:28:00.000+00:002006-02-28T17:28:00.000+00:00So very well put. So very true. You are not alon...So very well put. So very true. <BR/><BR/>You are not alone.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141118959496593192006-02-28T09:29:00.000+00:002006-02-28T09:29:00.000+00:00try this website www.coping.org. It also has a onl...try this website <BR/><BR/>www.coping.org. It also has a online course around writng skillsAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141091329581284522006-02-28T01:48:00.000+00:002006-02-28T01:48:00.000+00:00I don't really know you... I followed a link from ...I don't really know you... I followed a link from crystalsage's journal, but I really wanted to say thanks. *smiles* Thank you for finding the strength to express so eloquently what depression really means to both you and a lot of other people. I think it will help a lot of people understand. And more importantly, I hope this post has been really cathartic and theraputic for you.<BR/><BR/>I'm quite literally speechless... all I can think is.."wow that was me". It took a lot of years and a lot of work to step away from that edge you defined so clearly, I pray that some day you will be able to say 'that -was- me' as well.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141090558198878912006-02-28T01:35:00.000+00:002006-02-28T01:35:00.000+00:00So beautifully, heart-achingly written.My depressi...So beautifully, heart-achingly written.<BR/><BR/>My depression lives in my joints, like someone's taken drills to them. I walk like an old man when I'm sad.<BR/><BR/>-scott wAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141077059584231692006-02-27T21:50:00.000+00:002006-02-27T21:50:00.000+00:00*Virtual head squeeze*. ;)I find that work, and tr...*Virtual head squeeze*. ;)<BR/><BR/>I find that work, and trying to live in the moment and not thinking so much is the best thing to do for normal depression.<BR/><BR/>Actual clinical depression is a different beastie, of course. But even there, the mind is a powerful thing that can right itself with just a little help.<BR/><BR/>And everyone does get depressed, and that's okay. Sometimes we have to give ourselves permission to be depressed without guilt, because we're supposed to be happy all the time, which is just bullshit.<BR/><BR/>If it helps any, I think you're an endlessly fascinating, funny, and intelligent human being.<BR/><BR/>JeffVJeffVhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08306056002963293934noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141075196926968182006-02-27T21:19:00.000+00:002006-02-27T21:19:00.000+00:00Ditto Suzanne.Margo.Ditto Suzanne.<BR/>Margo.Among Amid Whilehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02904936537950038300noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141072682514842512006-02-27T20:38:00.000+00:002006-02-27T20:38:00.000+00:00Mine is like a fog or a mist or something. It gat...Mine is like a fog or a mist or something. It gathers around me more thickly some days and thins out on others but it always makes me feel apart. Everyone else is out there in the sunshine and my light gets filtered through and turns out murky. And some people have very bright headlights and on all but the days with the thinnest mist their lights reflect in the fog and make everything that much more confusing.<BR/><BR/>*leaves a seam ripper for picking at the stitches in your blanket*Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141065970820753792006-02-27T18:46:00.000+00:002006-02-27T18:46:00.000+00:00We're out here, listening.I know what you mean. I...We're out here, listening.<BR/><BR/>I know what you mean. I'm on the drugs now, and they make a huge difference. I still have days when I hate myself but they aren't every day.<BR/><BR/>If you're toying with trying SSRI's I will stand up and admit that they made a profound difference in my life.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06377038248884798376noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141065133052591402006-02-27T18:32:00.000+00:002006-02-27T18:32:00.000+00:00So many people in this world you'd like to *know*....So many people in this world you'd like to *know*... So few for whom you were there at the right time, at the right place, knowing to say the right thing that'd allow you to connect and be able to help when help was needed.<BR/><BR/>For the others, what's left but well-meant but ultimately shallow hugs?<BR/>[/wistful]<BR/><BR/>*hugs all the same*Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141047769258915242006-02-27T13:42:00.000+00:002006-02-27T13:42:00.000+00:00Here via Deborahb and...yeah. Yeah.Hope things ge...Here via Deborahb and...yeah. Yeah.<BR/><BR/>Hope things get better for you soon.<BR/><BR/> - HannahAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141047140907721332006-02-27T13:32:00.000+00:002006-02-27T13:32:00.000+00:00Email.Email.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141039919696468852006-02-27T11:31:00.000+00:002006-02-27T11:31:00.000+00:00Wow, amazing. Really, really accurate and good.Dav...Wow, amazing. Really, really accurate and good.<BR/><BR/>David.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141035158632256962006-02-27T10:12:00.000+00:002006-02-27T10:12:00.000+00:00*hug*You know you can make that call any time, and...*hug*<BR/>You know you can make that call any time, and I'm sure I speak for others too.<BR/><BR/>S.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3755770.post-1141028398558956662006-02-27T08:19:00.000+00:002006-02-27T08:19:00.000+00:00One of the good things about virtual hugs is that ...One of the good things about virtual hugs is that they go on for exactly the right amount of time for the huggee to get a little comfort without either party getting embarrassed or having to think of the next thing to say when the hug finishes.<BR/><BR/>So here is one:<BR/>>>O<<<BR/><BR/>You are so full of brains and talent. This bad time will pass.<BR/><BR/>Margo.Among Amid Whilehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02904936537950038300noreply@blogger.com